Purging the Pattern of Pursuing the Practical

Though the thoughts are fleeting, I have asked myself what happened to that little girl who used to fantasize and had no doubts about taking on the world with her outrageous ideas? I considered in part it was “meant to be.” That little girl was just caught up in the wonders of the world. Now she was grounded…practical…and realistic about her goals. Or was that my problem? About a week

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Time to Dust off the Gift Shelf

Have you ever anticipated a gift, yet once you held it in your hands you weren’t quite sure what to do with it? Have you ever felt like someone went to so much trouble to buy you exactly what you needed and wanted, yet you let it sit on a shelf collecting dust because life made it seem impossible to enjoy the gift as it was intended? To be truthful,

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Jury Summons and Character Details

Two weeks ago the letter came. “Official Jury Summons Enclosed.” I didn’t think I had lived in California long enough to make it on the list, but I guess it’s one of the rewards I get for being a registered voter. Actually, I don’t mind fulfilling my civic duty. Fulfilling it while my kids are on Spring Break makes it a little inconvenient, but I would have been working anyway,

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Frantic February Thoughts

February is turning out to be a crazy month! See the latest on our family’s dietary woes HERE. In other news, I am trying to get back on track with an improved diet, exercise, and finally seeing a doctor for the first time since we moved back to California in 2011. Although I am managing my pain and other symptoms to the point where I can complete my daily tasks,

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Crossing Over: Reflections on Getting to the Place Where I Can Write Fiction Again!

Changes at my day job and a sudden change in character in my husband have left me floating between uncertainty and relief. Is all this happening in order to bring me to a place where I can finally write the stories that have been buried in my heart for so long? With the New Year I realized I have formed some bad habits since our move to California. In my

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Are You Running on Memory Overload?

I made a discovery yesterday. After weeks of frustration regarding my smart phone’s limited memory I realized that over 2000 email messages I thought I had deleted were still being stored in the “trash” folder under each of my five email accounts! As discouraging as this discovery was, I was grateful to have found the source of my memory problems. Several hours and over seventy megabytes of recovered memory later,

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Self-Control = Deciding in Advance Where to Draw the Line

This week I am studying Self-Control as it pertains to the final aspect of the Fruit of the Spirit. It is not a coincidence that this is the last aspect following the other eight elements of the Fruit: Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness and Gentleness. For if we practice the other eight consistently and intentionally, the ninth should come easily. Right? What does self-control mean to you? Not eating that

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Bold but Gentle~Somewhere in Between Jerk and Doormat

Gentleness may conjure up the image of a mother cuddling her newborn. Yet many circumstances and relationships require gentleness in both attitude and action. Gentleness isn’t about being soft-spoken, silent, or sweet. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ~Matthew11:29 Gentleness is about a willingness to sacrifice for a greater cause, humility,

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A Refreshing Perspective

[slideshow] My boys and I spent the day exploring the backwoods of my home town in the Sierra Nevada Foothills. Something about the gnarled, moss-covered trees; clean, brisk air; and quiet engulfed with fluttering bird’s wings and the gurgling of river water hugging rocks of all sizes whisks me back to my childhood. In an instant I was back in time, where the carefree days of my sisters and I

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A Sacrificial Circle of Love

June 2003~ The Beginning of the Unexpected I avoided glancing up at my reflection in the wall-sized mirror, avoiding the truth about to be revealed by the slender plastic wand I would pee on in just a few moments. I washed my hands and avoided eye contact with the pregnancy test as if it were Medusa waiting to turn me into stone and solidify my fate. Focusing on the locked

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Peacekeeper or Peacemaker

I have faced many challenges in the past year. Living with fibromyalgia; fighting the need to please; feeling obligated toward others; financial struggles; approaching conflicts in marriage; struggling with the proper way to discipline my children; learning to say “no” in an attempt to form a healthy boundary; the list could go on. However, one word keeps coming to mind as I search for the reason behind making changes in

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Peacekeeper or Peacemaker

I have faced many challenges in the past year. Living with fibromyalgia; fighting the need to please; feeling obligated toward others; financial struggles; approaching conflicts in marriage; struggling with the proper way to discipline my children; learning to say “no” in an attempt to form a healthy boundary; the list could go on. However, one word keeps coming to mind as I search for the reason behind making changes in

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